"Mani Kum Mani Go"

Christmas passed as soon as it came. Whew! What an eventful year it has been indeed for 2006. Maybe just a tad too eventful i could say. Can't help but recall this Indian Character in the comic strip in the soccer section of the Newpaper called "Mani Kum Mani Go". Though true that "Money Comes, and Money Goes", i guess it holds the same truth where time is concerned.

I could honestly say that the pace of life in Singapore is too fast for me. Give me a countryside residence with a small farm in Aussie and New Zealand, and i'll be very contented to just prune bushes and pluck fruits. A little red wine to go with the steak will really make my day. Truthfully, the fast-paced-ness of the Singaporean society is really stressing me out. Call me slack or lazy, but its the cold hard truth don't you think? After Os, we're 16. Poly till 20. For guys, NS till 22. Then prob work for a couple years then maybe go for a 4yr degree course. So when we, in Singapore, get a degree, we'll be like what? 28?! People elsewhere already have one by 21! And we work so hard here to get a piece of paper, n after tt, $2.5k a mth??? hmm. ok maybe im generalising abit too much but that's quite true too rite?

Hmm. A couple UP THERE said to let the young people go out into the other countries to study, work, and bring back their experience etc. to S'pore. Thing is, which fella in the sound mind will? No doubt the GST may be high else where, but at least their paycheck makes up for it. Whereas, here, everything is rising(even the water level), except the paychecks!

Sigh. No welfare, certainly no WORKFAIR also!! i can't say too much too rite? HEHE!
Oh well, jus some random thoughts from my rambling mind. ;)

3 'C's - Character, Commitment, Consistency

Ok. Let me talk when everything is still rather fresh in my mind.

First things first. To Rachel, Rachel's family, and friends concerned or whom may be concerned. Yes, its true that i have failed in the part of the relationship. Having made promises but not able to fulfil them, resulting in hurt and animosity. i would like to clarify to say that it too wasnt easy for me, but priorities do change over time. im not gonna defend myself and put my pride on the line saying that i did no wrong. fact that it was i in the beginning who initiated everthing in the beginning and even ending it with my own hands, shows that i have failed horribly as a boyfriend and even a friend. honestly, i do feel guilty about stopping everything, but it was something tt had to be done. all i could say is, im sorry.

Next. To my parents, whether you read this or not. There is nothing between another girl and me. i apologise for having left the house that nite, and subsequent late nites and for not acknowleging you. i honestly felt very accused by ur statements and comments and lack of trust in me. i know you may have good intentions, but i felt things could have been better said and done, that the situation would not turn so ugly. Mom, you asked me what i wanted for my christmas present. i honestly do not expect anything, but i jus wish for you to understand me better, and not see every choice that i make is bad. i honestly jus want your trust. do you know how hurting it is when even my family places a judgment on me when everyone else seems to be doing the same? home doesnt feel like a home already. i know ur good intentions, i jus felt things could turn out better. i have decided to forgive, hope you will too. i love you Mom and Dad.

Third. Had a very good talk with Ps Gordon today. He is realli one person that i could talk to with nth held back, and he would always give good advice to me. Pastor taught me 3 'C's today. Character, Commitment and Consistency. these 3 'C's would ultimately determine the person you will be in life. What is your character? is it strong? What are your commitments and are you committed to them? What is your consistency in life? in the things you do? in your walk as a christian? Remember this well.

One major thing that has also struck me is, credibility. how credible are you as a person? so what if you have all the skills in the world, all the good looks etc. its ultimately ur credibility as a person that makes or break you.

i have got a question to you readers out there.

1. How do you determine success in your life?

Till now, i still cant fully answer that for myself. if you readers out there would like to encourage me and other readers about your views, pls post in the comments section under "Kennection" at the bottom of this post.

Work work work. shit shit shit.

WORK WORK WORK. Have been so preoccupied with work these few days n its no joke working an average of 9am - 8pm everyday. Even right now im in office typing this out. No complains if the working environment was good, but Tim n I soon realised things were not what they seemed and politics flying everywhere(jus like SOMEWHERE else). So things kinda develop in a drag.

SHIT SHIT SHIT. Some stuff happened to me lately which caused me to doubt alot of things in life and in people. So sorry to pple who msg me n i dun reply, cause i honestly jus need some space and time to myself. I shant emphasize much cause i dont want to(no using of "brother" or whatever to pressure me pls).

I shall jus say this once and for all. I'm not having another relationship. so jus (forgive the language) f**k off if ur thinking of tt. i've had enough.

To the certain group of people. DONT use ministry to pressure the youths or whoever in the church anymore! and say it to my face if u have any issues with me, and see what position ur in before deciding on whatever changes you want to make! so if ur not happy, tell it to me face, or jus get lost.

To the certain couple of people. I'm happy the way i am now. no regret on what i did. i believed at least i was honest enough in the path i chose. the onli regret i have now is starting everthing in the beginning. i had no such feeling actually. thanks to a certain someone, i do regret it now. say im a bastard or flirt, or whatever, i dont care anymore. im numb. so whatever shit u consider doing or have done to me, jus do it. screw my life for all i care. take all ur bloody sarcasm n judments with u.

Flood waters! yay. Singapore's going under!

Along Thomson Road before SLE.

1st Stage Performace at Geylang Methodist Pri

1st performance was a great experience! Made a fair bit of mistakes but hoped it wasnt too major. Haha. Fumbled on my Linking Rings abit too especially the last part. too bad mike wasnt able to capture my fire silk to cane effect!!!! ARGHHH!!! oh well, less words, video now. enjoy n post comments pls in the comments section under this post. :)

HOOOO! GAY MOTIVATION desu!

Fresh from the fire!

Oh and ya, this happened when i was cutting my toe nail.

Youth Camp!

Btw, I have just returned from youth camp not long ago. It was a camp that was truly a turning point for many of our youths and me as well. Thank God for the many miracles and healing that took place.

I didn't take any pics during youth camp. Only managed to get a few of the formal nite. so here they are. :)

Inspiration!

Meet Lu Chen. A professional magician from Taiwan. To me, it's just "WAAAAH!"

Pssst! im baaack!

Well, well, well. *laughs* I personally do not know what has made me to return to creating a new blog and start a whole new blogging saga again but this time the blog certainly looks way cooler right? Instead of the past fishy-ness, the blog is renamed and revamped to suit a whole new lifestyle!

Why the name "light-a-candle-flame"? Well, it goes to the roots of how i started in magic(i prefer illusions rather). A noob, i started with a fire palm trick, in which i have not put to good use and have since learnt that its not a good habit buying things on impulse when you're still not up to a certain standard. Another factor that made me choose this name, is because I'm actually doing a candle act in my FIRST performance this Sat on the 16th of Dec and i know that this candle act would certainly be a core part of my expanding repertoire of my illusion routines.

The fact that the candles were one of the very first sources of light to people show that this will be a new beginning for me in my life and my walk. Not forgetting my new motto "Live. The Passion. The Love. The Life."

Ciao.