First Fishing Attempt - Failed!

Haha. Went to Lower Seletar to try my hand at fishing today. Woke up at 5.30am to prepare and was out of the house before 6am. Paul came to keep me company soon after. Didnt catch anything, except a couple of PLASTIC BAGS and FISHING LINE! -___-" But nonetheless, company was great and so was the sunrise! I'm so gonna go back there w my camera next time!

Christmas Day 251208

Finally a short rest for me. Schedule's been so damn packed during the weeks building up to Christmas. Just last week had to go outfield, booked out on Sat, booked in on Sun, then live firing on Mon and Tue, and had to be the emcee for my battalion's Christmas celebration on Wed. So yea, finally a breather.

Christmas is literally non-existent this year. Nth has really gone right the past week, and things happened that make you wonder whether have you been living in an illusion all this while. Guess the only choice for me is to pick up the pieces and go, and force myself to bring my attention to other things.

Just be straightforward with me, will you?
If there's indeed nth, then there's nth.
I'd appreciate the honesty.

Maybe Its Better Off This Way..

Better That We Break - Maroon 5

I never knew perfection 'till
I heard you speak, and now it kills me
Just to hear you say the simple things
Now waking up is hard to do
And sleeping is impossible too
Everything is reminding me of you
What can I do

It's not right, not okay
To say the words that you say
Maybe we're better off this way
I'm not fine, I'm in pain
It's harder everyday
Maybe we're better off this way
It's better that we break…

A fool to let you slip away
I chase you just to hear you say
You're scared and that you think that I'm insane

The city looks so nice from here
Pity I can't see it clearly
While you're standing there, it disappears
It disappears

It's not right, not okay
To say the words that you say

Maybe we're better off this way
I'm not fine, I'm in pain
It's harder everyday
Maybe we're better off this way
It's better that we break

So you're sitting all alone
You're fragile and you're cold, but that's alright
Life these days is getting rough
They've knocked you down and beat you up
But it's just a rollercoaster anyway, yeah

It's not right, not okay
To say the words that you say
Maybe we're better off this way
I'm not fine, I'm in pain
It's harder everyday
Maybe we're better off this way

I'm not fine, not okay
To say the words that you say
Maybe we're better off this way

I'm not fine, I'm in pain
It's harder everyday
Maybe we're better off this way
It's better that we break, baby

Guards Rite of Passage Graduation Ceremony

Finally and officially became a Guardsman today. After 4 days of hellish treatment, both physically and mentally, and completing the Guards Assault Course and beach PT before the graduation ceremy, what can i say except "Always Ready, Ready to Strike!"

Dad putting on the Guards Tab on my left shoulder for me.

Camouflage, the Recce Trooper way!

Donning our Khaki Berets.

Here's the pleasant surprise. I was awarded Best Trainee (Scout)!

It was difficult, it was tough.
But certainly, what doesn't kill us, makes us stronger.
EARN IT!

a slow stroll.
a gentle breeze.
a nice red.
a connection.
perfect.

Life The Way It Is - "So Interesting"

Haven't blogged ever since i came back from Taiwan due to the tight army schedule that i have to conform to. Life in camp has been rather tiring and draining from the numerous training sessions and many other issues that linger. Thank God for buddy mates who go through the same things and provide an outlet for you to vent your frustrations to.

Next week's schedule won't be any less slack though, because i will be completing my Guards conversion. Gotta prepare myself for a 16km tactical march on tue and a whole load of "tekan" from the instructors till Friday. Hopefully, nothing major will happen and i will pull through the week and proudly don the coveted khaki beret at the end.

I am also very happy that i was able to complete my SOC (Standard Obstacle Course) in 8min 22secs. This means that there will be no more SOC RT (Remedial Training) till next year when i take my next SOC test. Now i just have to concentrate and work on my IPPT Gold for next year. Its close. Very close.

Have also talked to my battalion S1 (Manpower Branch) about matters pertaining to me signing on to the army as a career. To my disappointment, i was told i wasnt able to sign straightaway and get posted out for commander's training. Reason being that i was in a unit already, and if i were to go, who would replace me? Was told there'd be a recruitment talk early next year and could highlight my interest to them, but even so, the earliest i would be able to leave for further training is ard Dec next year. I'm still pretty much keen to sign on but will take this long period of time to carefully think further.

Have been thinking of a certain someone, but sometimes i just do not know how to express. Possible fears from making the same mistakes perhaps, and maybe too many uncertainties about the future. Unmatching schedules, different qualifications. The question i ask myself most of the time is whether am i good enough, whether my bad points overshadow the good, or is there no good at all? Give me a sign pls, anything, or has it all been wishful thinking on my part? Hmm.