Memorabilia...

RAAAH. How interesting can life be when you have to work? SUBJECTIVE! *random*

BUT, life has been rather fun this past couple of weeks.

BUT, due to my rather "self-termed-and-can't-be-helped" selective memory, I would only remember certain things that happened no matter what degree of memorability it holds. That is most probably why I do have a "random-ical flair" and that may be why I, sometimes, do say the darnest things at the darnest times. *remembers Bill Cosby's TV show "Kids Say the Darnest Things"*

Lets skip back to Saturday the week before last! Went to Tommy Kor's place after worship practice. Once the door was opened, I saw Joash sitting on the floor playing with his toys. Guess what? He saw me and he went "Ah-chee"!!! He was so cute! He actually has linked me with the word "Ah-chee" due to my constant mimicry of sneezing "Ah-cheew" and he couldn't do the exact pronunciation or diction. He's so cute right?! MEMORABILITY RATING: 9/10

Fast-forwarding a week, lets move on to last Sunday night. Went to the airport at night with Daryl, E-van, Leslie, E-liz, Hui Yun and Samuel. We went to there to play some games. I got my nails painted on the bus ride tot he airport. When we reached Terminal 2, we started off with Cranium(if i am not wrong) and I paired up with E-van. We won! Woohoo! Really fun game which tests your general knowledge, creativity and IQ. Then it was Taboo! was after that. It has been quite awhile that I've hung out through the night, and with them as well. All of them zonked out at McDonalds at around 6am execpt me and I was left to rot awake. Finished up an Elmo balloon while they were in "La La Land". Left the airport around 7am, and took bus 858(4 corpses on the backseat) back to Yishun. Breakfast was at McD's after which we played Truth or Dare(Truth rather, no mood for dares. All Daryl's fault!) for awhile. Fun time to spend with fun friends! MORE MORE! MEMORABILITY RATING: 9/10

Abit of self-reflection:

Time sure flies fast, too fast sometimes. So many things happen, and so many other things just come and go. What I want and aim to do now is to really be more than just surface-friends to people around me. It is true I have failed, failed in many things. Choices I made, things I did, relationships with other people, I can't help but say I could have did things so much, so much better. I guess it is all a process of maturing and growing up, a step/choice I have to make to progress from boy to man. National Service would come and go, and fact that literal adulthood looms after that is daunting. Can't help but remember my Dad telling me that once after I hit 21 years of age, I will have grown up. I will have to make ALL my decisions on my own. My life, how I want it to be, is up to me. Sounds good? How about I put it in this way. My life, how I want it to be, is at my DISPOSAL?

Many times, I have told many people "You're still young.. etc." even if they were jus a year younger or such. I do not know why, sometimes I just feel really much older, not jus physically. Recently, was talking about relationships to a certain person, and I sort of said that statement "You're still young..." and I also without knowing said "我是过来人“ which means, in English, that I have been through and seen many things. She replied saying that I am not that much older and after all the relationships I have been through, all failed. I was very much taken aback at her comments. I wasn't angry, or offended, but it was a moment of truth and revelation.

I don't know but I believe that is because for one, at a rather young age, I chose to have responsibility thrust upon me, such as coming into the workplace to work, doing a freelance biz, earning my own money and going without pocket money, etc. Things that I could say that a typical 19 year old won't face in their lives. This has really helped me mature in the monetary-gaining sense, and monetary-spendage sense. Though I do have problems saving money, I have a greater understanding in how to manage it.

Despite my many failed relationships, I have learned from it too. Anyway, which relationship isn't counted failed if they do not lead to marriage, except for the rare few cases? I have learned the hard way that responsibility and reputation is very important to a man, especially his credibility as a person. I have learned the hard way that rushing things often come to naught. These "failures" have taught me many life's lessons too, albeit the hard way.

I have learned, and still am learning,
I have walked, and am still walking,
I have seen, and am still seeing,
I have grown, and am still growing,
Learn with me, walk with me,
See with me, grow with me,
And together, lets be flowing.